The ones who do

There are many people I admire(see the growing list of links), who do one thing and do it very well, and I envy their passion for that one thing that makes them happy. It seems because of that passion for that one thing they pour their heart and soul into it and become masters of what they do. Either I havent found that one thing or I am not meant to? I like doing too many things! Because I feel that this issue holds me back from reaching my full potential I want to find a way to either change it or come to terms and use it to my advantage. I have yet to do either.

There are people I have read about who have been in the same place I am now and eventually found that one thing. In Tad Williams biography a science fiction and fantasy novelist(see links section) writes in his biography that he has held almost every creative field job you can have. He finally found that one thing: writing, and is one of the best in his field. So maybe there is hope?

A little background

I am a 34 year old father of two awesome little girls(10 and 3) and husband to a gorgeous wife and yet I still dont know what I want to be when I grow up. Dont get me wrong, I am educated(well I have an Associates Degree in Industrial Design) I can hold a job(7 years, until the last round of layoffs at my former company) and I am a responsible father(at least I think so...ask my wife?) and yet I still get nervous and feel like I should be carded every time I purchase alchohol. I am not saying I have Peter Pan syndrome and am irresponsible but I havent found that one thing I want to do until I die. I have found many.......?

I have always been a late bloomer, played with toys longer than most kids of my age. So maybe thats what it is, I will eventually narrow my focus as I age? In my opinion(and others) my biggest obstacle is I have too many interests and can find it hard to concentrate on any one of them. This seems to carry over to my hobbies and career, most recently I worked as a model-maker for a large electronics firm but I have dabbled in: Product Design, Sculpture, Illustration, 3D Illustration, Writing, Model-Making, 3D Modeling, Wood Carving, Furniture Design and Fabrication and others I cant think of right now. I like doing them all and when I am in the moment I sometimes feels, this is it, I have found what I want to do from now on. Then, inevitably, I lose interest and move on to something else. At what point do you hone in on the thing that you will master.....or do you?

What do you wan to be when you grow up?

Two weeks ago I was layed off from my job after 7 years. This job was my first out of college and I was determined to make it last only 2 years and then move on. Somehow you can get caught in a job that you may not hate but arent unhappy enough with to find the courage, motivation or whatever it takes to make that next step. Now I have no more excuses and I am sending out resumes, but I found myself hitting a wall as I couldnt decide what it is I want to do next.
This question is my reason for creating this blog. Am I the only one out there who cant seem to answer it? What problems does it create? Does is get better with age? How do you learn to overcome, deal with or make work it for you?